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Fiction. Paperback, 235 pages, apx 56,000 words, $17.95 via Barnes and Noble. $20 for personalized Author Signed Copy via ND Media Bookstore.
NEW E-book edition now available, $2.99 via Bookshop.org
Deluxe DIY Edition e-book (sharable PDF file) — 232 pages, apx 65,800 words, $5 via ND Media
Release date: 9 June 2024
Eighteen-year-old Estelle Perdue has driven herself over the edge. Racing against the limits of insomnia and an unforgiving time clock, she succumbs to sleep while driving home from a music festival. She is saved from the ditch by the most fortunate circumstances — or is she? Unable to tell where one dream world ends and another begins, Estelle’s dark night culminates as an unlikely band of fellow travelers she had met on the road collaborate with her lifelong antagonist and guide her to an ultimate catharsis.
Set in the alternative rock heyday of the early 1990s, UNLESS is a coming-of-age drama with a distinct Gen-X flavor, a cynical front against a soundtrack of hope. It is a love letter to the twin powers of music and writing, and an homage to their ability to lift us above our assigned narratives into the space where we become the storytellers of our lives, not just the main characters.
The Deluxe DIY Edition, in e-book only, includes a supplemental section of “behind the scenes” bonus material called “The Untold Story of ‘Angry Youth: the Untold Story’ (and how it helps reveal the many narrative layers of UNLESS).” You can learn more about the fascinating true story behind the adventures of Estelle! This edition is exclusive to the ND Media Bookstore (paperback edition is coming soon, ETA summer of 2024).
I and I: A Perennialist Theory of Reincarnation and Cyclical Time
Essay/non-fiction, e-book (sharable PDF file) — 143 pages, apx 35,100 words, $5 via ND Media Bookstore
Release date: 4 June 2023
Noesta’s most ambitious non-fiction project to date takes a deep dive into the possibilities of transmigration of the self — a potential that arises from a simple twist in the metaphysics of time.
“Think of [time] like a roller coaster. You board the coaster in one location, and it takes you on a long looping ride that will be terrifying and exhilarating and filled with experiences you would never have been able to comprehend if you hadn’t taken the ride. Then the ride ends, bringing you back to the place where you started, not somewhere else several miles away. This is a simple model of cyclical time, if we grasp that the starting and ending point of the ride is the same because it is outside of time — which is the actual meaning of eternity, not indefinite linear time — rather than [a specific moment in time]. Cyclical time is necessary to account for both the subjective experience of duration and the grounding of that experience in eternity.”
Fiction. Paperback, 334 pages, apx 65,000 words. $20 for personalized Author Signed Copy via ND Media Bookstore; $18.95 via Barnes & Noble
DIY E-Book Edition $5 via ND Media Bookstore
E-book, $2.99 via Apple Books, Barnes and Noble, Kobo, or Book Locker.
Release date: 15 April 2022
"Be humble for you are made of stardust, Be noble for you are the Maker of stars."
A God-seeking peasant from a mythic kingdom is unable to find peace within the doctrinal constraints of his people’s religion. One day he is called to undertake a pilgrimage to the heavenly mountaintop Palace for an audience with the King. But the hero’s journey he had imagined takes many unexpected turns that stretch his faith beyond its limits and shatter every bone of truth in his body. In his brokenness, he learns that his destination was never far away, though only his ultimate failure in chasing it could reveal what he truly was all along.
Modeled after the great allegorical tales among the world’s heritage of sacred scriptures, The Peasant and the King is a revival of traditional mythic storytelling with a unique rendition of timeless Perennial wisdom. Combining elements of Taoism, Zen Buddhism, Advaita Vedanta, Christian mysticism, Spinozan pantheism, panpsychism, and modern quantum theory, it reinvokes the ancient art of mythcraft as a contemplative exercise, while exemplifying the modern value of finding unity in diversity.
Traditional spiritual teachings still hold sway over our hearts in this era of mechanistic thought. But their guardians have mostly abdicated the role of consciousness expansion in favor of fundamentalist politics and literalism. If you sense the treasure hidden among these seminal texts, The Peasant and the King delivers a needed dose of mystic insight and metaphysical heft, all within a time-bending motif that will drop you at your doorstep after a long, deep ride into the Void within.
Fiction. Paperback, 398 pgs, apx 121,000 words. $20 for personalized Author Signed Copy via ND Media Bookstore; $18.95 via Barnes and Noble
DIY E-Book Edition $5 via ND Media Bookstore
E-book (downloadable PDF or Nook format) available for $2.99 via Apple Books, Barnes and Noble, Kobo, and Book Locker.
Release date: 19 June 2020
How would our lives be different if we could weather the storms of tragedy and loss without fear? What if the fearlessness were not a result of isolation from others or insulation in false hope and comforting beliefs, but of full immersion in uncertainty, armed only with the knowledge and trust that what we perceive as the entirety of a lifetime is nothing compared to what Life really is?
With the raw, surreal events of September 11, 2001 as the backdrop, “Birding in the Face of Terror” is told by two parallel narrators, Joseph and Pedro, facing the same spiritual crisis. Both must use their scattershot religious and philosophical background to come to grips with psychological exiles of their own devising. Joseph, trapped by circumstance as an eyewitness to the terrifying events on the East Coast, is forced from his agoraphobic shell into a hero’s role. Pedro is secluded and silenced on the West Coast, left to plumb his own interior landscape to make sense of it all. The saving grace of connection comes in ways both ordinary and mysterious when a kindred clan of mystics from the Heartland emerge, offering a middle road between their extremes.
As John Donne famously told us, “No man is an island.” “Birding” contemplates this timeless truth anew, unveiling answers both familiar and revolutionary. Though it flips the bird in the face of our post-9/11 security hysteria and de facto state religion, it does so by pointing toward an alternate way of seeing that confounds common assumptions about who we are. While tipping some of our most sacred cows, it also makes space for everyday miracles to work their wonders through characters who never expected themselves to be holy. The result is an upwelling inspiration, steeped in a no-nonsense pantheistic spirituality that will speak to today’s savvy, multicultural truth seekers.
“Birding” is an antidote for our age of anxiety, a hopepunk testament of love and wholeness for a culture broken by fear.
The Continuing Story of Ananias and Sapphira — Deluxe 2023 Edition
Fiction with commentary. E-book (PDF file)–85 pgs, apx 26,200 words. $5 via ND Media Bookstore
Original release date: 4 Feb 2017; reissued 12 Jun 2023
In the New Testament’s Book of Acts, a mere eleven verses tell the story of Ananias and Sapphira, two sadsack converts who were caught defying the rules of the first Christian community in Jerusalem and promptly “gave up the ghost.” Based on these records, mainstream religion treats them as thieves who got what they deserve, and as far as we know the story ends there….until Ananias wakes up in his counselor’s office at the Middle Realm division of Pearly Gates, Inc.
With the help of the archangel Gabriel as a world–weary case worker, Ananias must untangle the circumstances of his abrupt passing, and grapple to understand why his beliefs did not give him a free ticket to Heaven. What he learns through his purging process gives an entirely different meaning to the concept of salvation, and teaches us that, no matter how bureaucratic it can seem through our black-and-white-colored lenses, Divine mercy leaves no one behind.
In the spirit of The Last Temptation of Christ which inspired it, Waldo Noesta’s debut story challenges every literal assumption we make about the Good News of Christianity while affirming its essence. As an antidote to exclusivity and scriptural idolatry, it offers in its place a spiritually progressive vision based in the Perennial wisdom that Christianity shares with other faiths, as well as basic human values like compassion and self-sacrifice. The result is a cleansing of the lens through which we view the ancient teachings on timeless metaphysical truth, a discourse on the role of fresh insight in keeping those teachings relevant and vital, and a joyful celebration of life and love.
The 2023 Deluxe Edition includes a brand new, very personal reflection on the backstory of A&S by the author, recalling his time with his wife (“Nadia” from Birding in the Face of Terror) as misfit members of an evangelical church in Oregon, as well as commentary straight from the composition notebook where A&S was penned.
The Even Better News: An Avant-God Manifesto
Essay. E-pamphlet (PDF file) — 37 pages, apx 10,400 words. FREE via ND Media Bookstore
Release date: 22 July 2020
Originally penned in 2014 as two separate articles to function as the opening statement on the former Heretic Asylum website, I smooshed them together and added new insights for a fresh take on this tribute to progressive theology and DIY religion. If those seem to you like oxymoronic terms, you need to read this. Religion depends upon a progressive minority to keep it both relevant and spiritually nourishing. The innovative thinkers and inner cosmonauts, exploring with fidelity to the traditional theological frameworks, are in fact the only reason these frameworks still exist as trailheads for the path to the Eternal and Absolute.
You will learn why religion becomes stronger and more effective for its ultimate purpose when its legends are taken as poetic metaphor rather than historic fact; why poetry removes the top of Emily Dickinson’s head, and how the Avant-God come to claim the rest of her. You will grok the subtle difference between Sruti and smriti, and between gospel and scripture. By the end, I’ll be damned if you aren’t ready to start your own Omniperennialist pathwalk if you aren’t on one already (or at least find out what that means).
This new 2020 edition also includes a list of Recommended Reading compiled by the Not Two staff for your further explorations.
Spiritual Anarchism: An Introduction –Special 2025 Edition
Essay. E-pamphlet (PDF file) — 35 pages, apx 8700 words. FREE via ND Media Bookstore
Original release date: 9 Aug 2020; new edition released December 2024
"Now, finally, I am my own soul's emperor: and my first act is abdication."
Anarchists in the United States have become a new target of the Trump regime as it slides headlong down the slope toward totalitarianism, and manufactured footage of “anarchy” at protests are the scare tactic de jour for the right-wing voter base. But none of it has anything to do with the political philosophy of anarchism, which is based on self-ownership, individual responsibility, mutual aid, and strong community organization.
There is also an element of anarchism that is inwardly focused, and based on the contemplative process of deposing the false “head of state,” the ego, and empowering the true self. It is this lesser-known but equally important dimension that gives anarchism the lift under its political wings, and creates any chance that it has to change hearts and build human-scale momentum toward a free, classless society.
In this short but dense treatise on the spiritual side of anarchism, Noesta draws upon his own experience and aligns it with role models and influences like Ammon Hennacy, Dorothy Day and the Catholic Worker Movement, unprogrammed Quakerism, Martin Luther King Jr., Henry David Thoreau, Leo Tolstoy, and yes, even Jesus of Nazareth (not likely the parts you will hear about in most churches though). The result is a completely new perspective on a timely topic.
Essay, E-pamphlet (sharable PDF file) — 23 pages, apx 5700 words. FREE via ND Media Bookstore
Release date mid 2021
“All the world’s a stage. You’ll get over it.”
When my old bestie Jeffrey Bonfield dealt that double pair of entendres to the universe many years ago, I doubt he foresaw being quoted in the epigraph of my first novel, “Birding in the Face of Terror” — and I am certain he never imagined that he’d created the first (and thus far, only) indigenous Omniperennialist mantra.
Using the poignant metaphor of live theater, Noesta takes us on a guided trip beyond “the fourth wall” of our own subjective experience of linear time, and into the transtemporal realms alluded to perennially by the world’s spiritual traditions. You will see the metaphysical foundation for the “I and I” perspective of “Birding’s” unitary narrator, and why you can trust your soul, the actor playing your character in your unique “theatrical production,” to lead you there when your curtain falls — great news to anyone who has dealt with debilitating anxiety about death, or fates even worse.
If you’ve read the condensed version of this article at Not Two, give it another look here. Though still a short read, this is a contemplative essay you will want to ponder long and deep.
Snowtrek: In Search of St. Louis-du-Ha! Ha!
Non-fiction, E-pamphlet (PDF file). 19 pages, apx 5800 words. FREE via ND Media Bookstore
This is an old autobiographical short story about two young wanderers and a Mirage on a simple roadtrip to Montreal. Things take a turn for the weird when the ennui-induced pursuit of a French-Canadian saint named Louis-du-Ha! Ha! forces the intrepid travelers to face a formidable opponent trying to halt their pilgrimage.
how about Don’t Tread on Anyone: Confessions of a Radical Left-Libertarian
Essay, E-pamphlet (shareable PDF file) — 19 pages, apx 4,300 words. FREE via ND Media Bookstore
This piece was adapted from an early draft of the preface for a novel-in-progress called The Rise and Fall of the Cielo Republic. Upon finishing it, I realized there was a message that was too pertinent and timely to wait for the long process of writing a novel, so I turned it into an essay to e-publish on its own.
Left-libertarianism represents a range of political philosophies that emphasize both individual liberty and egalitarian economic systems that promote a more equal distribution of opportunities. When compared to the other three quadrants on the biaxial social-economic political spectrum (authoritarian left, authoritarian right, and libertarian right), it is clear that the libertarian left, despite widespread public support for many of its positions, has by far the least amount of representation in the United States federal government. Mainstream Democrats prefer to play political football with its key issues over actual progressive leadership, while the mere inference of “socialism” is enough for Republicans to secure a mandate from their supporters to squash any populist momentum. After more than 40 years of neo-liberal economics and incremental retrogression on social issues driven by the MAGA constituency, “libertarian left” is so obscure that the phrase sounds like an oxymoron.
But did you know that the term “libertarian” was coined by a 19th-century anarcho-communist to describe his own philosophy? This usage persisted unopposed until the early 1970s in fact. There are still many individuals whose political views embody both freedom and economic justice, and the world needs more such people who can think of these two dimensions in tandem to organize into a more effectual collective voice.
Staying in the voice of Cielo narrator Cottleston Pierce, Don’t Tread on Anyone is a very personal confession of Waldo’s left-libertarian ideals and the spiritual perspective that informs them. Focusing on individual sovereignty rather than identity as the basis for our personhood and natural rights, it offers a heartfelt vision of another world that becomes possible when the individual’s exclusive right to access one’s inner sense of direction and momentum, as well as one’s kinship with others, is held as sacrosanct. If anything can be a beacon leading away from the right-wing authoritarian trajectory of the world in 2025, this vision of its exact opposite could be it.
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